Honestly, I wanted to run and grab her when she got a little upset, and it took all my will power not to. I can't believe she starts in two weeks. Next week, we go in together and spend an hour or so on one or two days. Then August 2nd, I drop her off. Period. I'll start be leaving her there for a few hours a day, working up to a full day by the second week.
I'm having some mommy guilt about starting her in August when I technically don't go back to work until the very end of the month. And I'm sure many will judge me for taking this time to transition. But I'm okay with this decision. I have been away from work for what will be 18 months. I need time to get my head around it and get my shit together. This is near impossible to do while watching a toddler. And I really feel like the more "ready" I feel for work, the better and easier all this will be. I also want to be around if they need me to come get her or if she gets sick. I won't be able to do that once I'm back at work (my mom will have to do that for us). I